A Good Dog | My Heart Dog

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I didn’t want to leave this blog on such a sad note. Of course losing Rufus has been one of the hardest times in my life and not a second goes by that I don’t wish he was still here with me. My heart is broken right now and anger is still winning. Luckily (or not so luckily at all) I’m kind of a veteran when it comes to grief, so I know that time really does heal just about everything and one day I will remember all of the good times over those last few weeks of pure confusion and pain.

If you follow me on Instagram, you know that I have changed my handle over there. As of right now, that is the only place I’m currently writing but if that changes, I’ll be sure to keep you updated via that account so stay tuned. I wrote a post explaining why I made the change and what the future holds for me as a crazy dog lady that just needs to share her passion for all things canine.

Here is the post:

I’ve been thinking of ways to honor my heart dog during this time of mourning and this phrase keeps coming up again and again. Rufus had behavioral issues which included fear reactivity, defensiveness, and he even nipped a few times when he was extra stressed. However, through training and recognizing his triggers, our relationship never weakened. Of course there were times in which I was extremely frustrated with him, but I knew all of these moments were teachable ones. Rufus was a good dog regardless of these moments. He adored me and others he let in his circle, learned from his mistakes, and was always willing to try my way…even when he really didn’t want to. ūüėČ He was a good dog because he was meant for me. He made me a behavior nerd, nutrition obsessed, and taught me a whole new level of empathy for those going through their own struggles. He taught me so much in such a short period of time and I will be forever grateful for that…even when grief just wants me to be angry and bitter. Rufus was a good dog because he was exactly the dog I needed during our time together and he taught me so much about myself and what makes me light up in life. And there’s nothing bad about any of that.

 

Loving Rufus came so easily to me…even when he made it really, really difficult. I had fostered many dogs before him, worked with hundreds of dogs in just about every animal-related field, and then fostered pups after his adoption was finalized. And do you know that I never connected with any of those dogs the way that I did with Ru? Sure there were/are my favorites and there are dogs that absolutely make/made my day brighter whenever I got to work with them, but Rufus was the dog for me. Fostering and then adopting him changed me in a million ways. Our connection was so deep that even those that witnessed it would comment on how we communicated effortlessly without a word being said. He was my litmus test on how I was feeling at any given moment. He was my heart dog and it’s been incredibly hard to even consider loving another dog that way again. And who knows? Maybe I won’t.

But that doesn’t mean I won’t try. I was put on this planet to work with dogs, to nurture those that have been broken or let down by other humans. This kind of connection brings me so much joy and I’d be a fool to let go of all of that. And having my own dog to nurture fully? Well that has been one of the most fulfilling things I have ever done in this life. And I know that I will give my heart to another dog one day and that Rufus would have wanted me to move on and share that love again. It seems close to impossible at this moment but I know this moment will be gone in an instant and I look forward to the moment I lock eyes with a pup who needs me….and who I need just as much.

I’ve felt it before and I will feel it again. It’ll just take time. Because boy oh boy, did I hit the jackpot when I found him.¬†

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Collar Addicts Anonymous | Very Vintage Collars

While¬†I was slowly becoming¬†the crazy dog lady that I am today, I didn’t know I could find so much joy in a beautifully well-made collar. There’s just something about finding the perfect collar for your dog that makes me waaaaay too happy. But oh well, right? I just roll with my weirdness.

I’ve tried a few Etsy stores now for dog supplies and I’ve been really happy with all of them. I love Etsy¬†artists and I really love supporting small businesses. I mean, I kind of have one of those myself so it’s important to me to support my fellow entrepreneurs.

 

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Very Vintage collars are a-dor-a-ble! They are organic and well-made. In fact, they even went out of their way to put a few custom details into the ones I ordered.

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You may be wondering why in the world I ordered a “girl” collar? Well, I kind of thought my foster pup was going to last more than one day haha…

Luckily Abby¬†was around¬†to model this cute watermelon pattern. Also, I am not above making Rufus wear my favorite summer melon design either. He’s comfortable enough with his masculinity anyway. Such a dude.

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Doesn’t he look dapper (and a tad drool-y) in the chevron pattern? The pop of red was totally my idea.

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Behind the scenes of a dog photoshoot. They don’t work for free, folks!

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But they sure¬†look cute begging, don’t they?

Very Vintage has a ton of other options. I almost chose the pineapple one because…pineapple! I also really love the farmer’s market pattern and well, what PDX dweller wouldn’t love something with a bird on it??

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Also, popsicles! Ok I’ll stop now.

If you’re interested in trying out a new shop for your pup’s fashion needs, I couldn’t recommend Very Vintage enough. The customer service was stellar and the shop owner was so kind and accommodating. I’ll definitely be ordering more in the future! Just try and stop me.